Life can get away from you and get all backed up if you don't just go ahead and blog about it, I am getting behind real fast.
Friday held a new beginning, the first party held in my honor since I was 12. I was pretty nervous but I showed up anyway. :) I usually meet with my friends one at a time and on this lovely Friday evening I had my closest friends all together. Wonderful women, who, like me are growing and are in the midst of their own beginnings. Some are newly divorced, starting new jobs, starting new blogs, gaining new insights into the new them, learning to trust themselves more and becoming more honest about who they are and who they are becoming.
The evening was captured by soft spanish music, homemade sangria , little cups filled with red and pink carnations, candle light and a comfortable feeling of feeling at home. As we settled in to the night and into each other we shared lots of laughter, some honest and serious discussions about life, politics, kids, men and real estate. It was a good first.
I went home that evening wrapped in underwear, literally, and worry. Worried that I might have said the wrong things, worried that I wasn't witty enough. Worry, worry, worry. Seriously, I had nightmares all night. I swear it's funny but it's freakin insane too. I texted everyone and thanked them for coming and the gifts and so on. Then, this morning I get a text from one of the women who is such a joy to be with and she mentioned how welcoming my friends were and that she hoped I felt blessed. Well, yes I know that I am blessed but truthfully I wasn't feeling blessed. I was feeling worried. Needless to say that stopped me dead in my feeling of worry and I cried. I am truly blessed for these wonderful women I have in my life and I am truly blessed in all areas of my life.
Thank you God and thanks to all of you wonderful women who know who you are.
